Mummy Time!

I LOVE looking at those chunky little cheeks! I am so happy with how well Tucker is growing and how alert and sweet and wonderful he is. I am also exhausted and tired and stressed and everything else at times - but I guess that is to be expected. Also to be expected - less time to write things down here, even though I desperately want to - just to keep a record of it all for my sanity/posterity. I want to look back on this and remember how I felt and what was going on day by day. So this post may be a mish mash of thoughts, but it is what comes to mind. I am, as every new mother is, exhausted. Tucker is going down well at first at night - and then usually again about 11ish, but that 2-3 am wake up call sucks. He is VERY alert then and wants to be up for an hour or more. And that is when I am fading fast and just trying not to fall asleep holding him before he falls asleep! he is also very congested and I think that adds to it. Not sure what to try. The nose sucker doesn't work as his nose is just too tiny for it - not going to stretch out the nostrils! The midwife is coming by today, so I can ask her about it all. But it is just sad to listen to him trying to breathe properly and just getting snot and stuff. So I lay there and hold him mostly upright and just pat him and rock him and love him. Sweet guy. We had our first real weekend at home where there was no major running around of errands to do. So Andrew got to spend all weekend here with us and get some major snuggling time in. That was nice. Although work beckoned yesterday - for me - and I spent about 7 hours on Skype calls and trying to sort out stuff for some 5/10k timing events we have going on this weekend coming up back home. Very frustrating trying to get stuff done over Skype when I can't actually be touching the machine and pushing the buttons that I think may fix something, etc. Thankfully we have some awesome folks helping us out back home and they are worth every penny! Cause I was ready to throw in the towel! I am reading up a storm - 2 books in the last 5 days. Got a library card and take stuff out to read while nursing Tucker. On that note - he's awake - time to nurse!