Stop Complaining

Just tucked Baby Boy into bed. Such an angel. What a blessing. So many of you have 2 or 3 or more kids plus a dog/cat/job/etc and I applaud you and am humbled by you.

Big Boy!

Good Lord this kid changes daily! He could not sit up unsupported yesterday - and today he is doing it like a pro! Now, I can't walk away from him sitting - he has his limits - but he is just amazing me. But I am learning that kids will do that. Love him.

Doing It All

Wow. I knew it was going to be more work having Abbey here - I had no idea how much more and how tired I would be. It is like starting all over again with the baby!
I love having her here. I get more frustrated with her at times cause it is annoying pushing Tucker in the stroller and having her pull at the leash. But she is getting better at it. And I have even been able to leave her out of the kennel when I leave the house for a couple hours. And that makes me feel better knowing she isn't just locked up and that we can trust her. So far;)

But I will say - it has been a hard week. I had a bit of a Mommy Meltdown and did cry the last few days more than I have in a couple months. It's tough being so far away from friends and family. Add in not having a car. And now the dog. And Andrew leaves about 7:30 every morning and comes home about 6:30-7:30 at night. So I am alone all day with Tucker and Abbey. No need to get out of sweats if I don't want to - but thankfully have enough little things going on that I need to. At least with Abbey I now have to get out of the house a couple times a day - if only for a little walk to throw the ball - it is getting outside. I just don't feel like 'me' anymore. And that is the hardest part. I miss the interaction with my friends. I miss a sort of independence of a car. I miss having a reason to shower and look like an adult.
But I also get to enjoy this first part of Tucker's life being so in tune and close to him. I get to see all the little changes as they happen day by day and watch in amazement as he learns new things. I get to snuggle with him to my hearts content and smile at him when he giggles at me!


So I don't want to feel like a complainer. Just a little unloading of everything on my shoulders so I can brush it off and move forward and stay strong. But I guess as any Mom knows - you just have those meltdown days at times and I have been having a few of them!

6 month old baby boy!

Wow! 6 months! Just seems that is how I should start this post. Tucker is amazing and sweet and giggly and wonderful. He keeps me up at nights, has started a high pitch girlie squeal for no reason, and hates taking a bottle. He is at least 18 pounds (was 17.9 a week and a half ago) and is 25 and a half inches long. He has a little scrape on his right cheek where I tripped with the stroller and he went for a tumble (thankfully strapped in). His little chunky thighs are adorable and he is the best napping buddy. He loves to bounce in his doorway bouncer- although sometimes it will lull him to sleep! He hates lying down - wants to stand up and sit up - but still needs support. Tucker continues to grow and change everyday. Andrew took about 20 minutes of video of him just bouncing and bouncing ha! He rolls over constantly and is starting to lift his butt up like he wants to figure out the crawling thing - not just doing superman while on his belly!

Abbey is here now as well. Love our big puppy girl. But wow - this is a lot of work. One week down and I am exhausted. Have gone back to taking naps with Tucker the last two days! It's difficult, because Tucker needs so much right now from me and it is hard to show Abbey the same amount of love and attention that she used to get from us. I knew it was going to be a lot of work - I had no idea. But, this is life and this is family and we do what we need to do - right? We have been heading out to the park 3 times a day for some runs with the Chuck It - not for an hour or anything, but enough to get her thirsty. Andrew has taken her out when he comes home while I am putting Tucker down as well a few nights. She is just having to adjust to not being top "dog". Baby is allowed on bed - you are not...and so on. Much easier at home where the outdoors is our backyard. Now we have to pack up the stroller and baby and go out in public to get her some exercise. And as someone else said, there is also laundry and cleaning, and exercise, and showering, and so on and so on. Welcome to Mommyhood.

So, we keep on keeping on. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger? Or want to drink;)
Love my family!