Wow. I knew it was going to be more work having Abbey here - I had no idea how much more and how tired I would be. It is like starting all over again with the baby!
I love having her here. I get more frustrated with her at times cause it is annoying pushing Tucker in the stroller and having her pull at the leash. But she is getting better at it. And I have even been able to leave her out of the kennel when I leave the house for a couple hours. And that makes me feel better knowing she isn't just locked up and that we can trust her. So far;)
But I will say - it has been a hard week. I had a bit of a Mommy Meltdown and did cry the last few days more than I have in a couple months. It's tough being so far away from friends and family. Add in not having a car. And now the dog. And Andrew leaves about 7:30 every morning and comes home about 6:30-7:30 at night. So I am alone all day with Tucker and Abbey. No need to get out of sweats if I don't want to - but thankfully have enough little things going on that I need to. At least with Abbey I now have to get out of the house a couple times a day - if only for a little walk to throw the ball - it is getting outside. I just don't feel like 'me' anymore. And that is the hardest part. I miss the interaction with my friends. I miss a sort of independence of a car. I miss having a reason to shower and look like an adult.
But I also get to enjoy this first part of Tucker's life being so in tune and close to him. I get to see all the little changes as they happen day by day and watch in amazement as he learns new things. I get to snuggle with him to my hearts content and smile at him when he giggles at me!
So I don't want to feel like a complainer. Just a little unloading of everything on my shoulders so I can brush it off and move forward and stay strong. But I guess as any Mom knows - you just have those meltdown days at times and I have been having a few of them!
I love having her here. I get more frustrated with her at times cause it is annoying pushing Tucker in the stroller and having her pull at the leash. But she is getting better at it. And I have even been able to leave her out of the kennel when I leave the house for a couple hours. And that makes me feel better knowing she isn't just locked up and that we can trust her. So far;)
But I will say - it has been a hard week. I had a bit of a Mommy Meltdown and did cry the last few days more than I have in a couple months. It's tough being so far away from friends and family. Add in not having a car. And now the dog. And Andrew leaves about 7:30 every morning and comes home about 6:30-7:30 at night. So I am alone all day with Tucker and Abbey. No need to get out of sweats if I don't want to - but thankfully have enough little things going on that I need to. At least with Abbey I now have to get out of the house a couple times a day - if only for a little walk to throw the ball - it is getting outside. I just don't feel like 'me' anymore. And that is the hardest part. I miss the interaction with my friends. I miss a sort of independence of a car. I miss having a reason to shower and look like an adult.
But I also get to enjoy this first part of Tucker's life being so in tune and close to him. I get to see all the little changes as they happen day by day and watch in amazement as he learns new things. I get to snuggle with him to my hearts content and smile at him when he giggles at me!
So I don't want to feel like a complainer. Just a little unloading of everything on my shoulders so I can brush it off and move forward and stay strong. But I guess as any Mom knows - you just have those meltdown days at times and I have been having a few of them!
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